My only and unique brother, Gom Dorji.

Gom Droji and Jigme Zangpo

We are brother by fate and I am happy to be his brother. Growing up in same family and I have many memory that cherished my lonely mind whenever I think of it. Unlike other brothers who don’t stay always together as a brotherhood but we always stay together until I got to go to Spain for exchange program scholarship.

We studied our pre-primary school in same school in our village. I went separated in 2003 from my brother in Lauri Primary School to complete my class six. It was also in 2004 when he was still in class six in village, I was in Minjiwoong Lower Secondary school studying in class seven. We are together in the year 2005 in Minjiwoong School. We stayed on same bed. Unfortunately I was ill in 2005 and couldn’t attend final exam. In the year 2006 instead of feeling unhappy as I missed a year, I still remember that I was happy as I could study together with my brother. We were in same standard from that onward.

It was in Nanglam Middle Secondary School, we were in same class (IX A) on top of we stay on same bed. We could complete class X peacefully in same class and same bed in the year 2008.

The result of Bhutan Certificate of Secondary Education (BCSE Class-X) was declare on the month of February, 2009. We were both qualified to 11. We were place in Nangkor Higher Secondary School. He was in 11 science B and I was in 11 science A of course we are in same room. We completed our +2 in Nangkor in the year 2010.

Bhutan Higher Secondary Education Certificate was declare at end of the January, 2011. We were not satisfied with our result. He would have qualified for studies outside country if his language mark is or above 55%. Unfortunately fate decide him to be Engineer and he was got selected under the discipline, Electrical Engineering program in College of Science and technology. Mathematics Honors was only option left for me to study outside country but fate decide elder brother to be Engineer too. I was selected for Electronics and Communication Engineering program in the same college. We were both happy to be engineer despite knowing my course has no scope in Bhutan.

Looking back from where we are today to where we come from; we are happy for our hard work and determination. Three year in college was gone forever. The days and night we spent together in same room for 6 semester was really a wonderful. You obeying me as I was your brother but brother I am sorry that I couldn’t obey you much, as you did. It was my only regret that is lingering on my mind when we are no more together. I now realize the value of respect and obedient. I am once again sorry my dear brother, Gom Dorji.  Forgive me for being impoliteness sometime. I am happy because you always understand my nature. Brother, I shall always keep our bond brotherhood strengthen ever and ever. I know there is no doubt from your side. I have great expectation from you that you can unit our family as family itself.

Now you are in final year and my hope along with deepest prayer; always be who you are, never get away by negative friend and have a mind of caring our precious parents.

Your brother shall be in Spain for 10 months missing you all.

With affection.

Jigme Zangpo.

Responsibility coming on the way

Being an elder brother from family is something to shoulder that younger’s brother and sister cannot do. The duty and feeling of eldest brother is good if I can serve my family. The burden of being elder brother, when I think of serving my family at this juncture when it’s impossible for me, is really a disheartening and feeling sad. The incapability of serving family at this juncture when it’s time to serve made me to think a lot. Sometime the unending thoughts especially at night, when I go to bed disturb my mind mentally and let my sleep go somewhere. I don’t know how my brother and sister have thoughts on serving of family. For me it’s something a tension when think of serving needy family at this point. I control my mind, not to think about it because thinking just adds tension in my mind. If the thinking of serving family is the solution in reality, the countless thoughts of mine in serving would have done, what I am supposed to do. So, thinking gives me a problem and I try to do away. I am eager to serve my family as fast as I can.

The gratitude for parent in bringing in this wonderful world and given every possible thing to me is always within me and now it’s my turn and times to repay my parents. Father and mother, for me, is everything. I have nothing to compare them in this world in terms of great. In fact they are greatest in this world. I am sad to know that I can’t repay them even in my next life. So I wish I am child of them till the mother earth exits. Seeing what I wish is impossible, remind me of only solution in repaying parents by having entered as a monk with pure mind. The hardships they have taken in bringing the sibling to condition that society believe is really a difficult task. Thinking the difficulties they have undergone, I have nothing to repay at this point of time when I am also in needy condition but I only I could do is to pray to kenchosum and Tsa-Wa-Lam to let my father and mother be the happiest man and woman on the earth. I wish always that my father and mother is in good condition. I love my dad and mum. And I love my sister Yedam Dema who always with my father and mother. On top of thanking father and mother for caring me, I have again somebody to thanks them. They are none other than my responsible sibling who always helps in serving our dad and mum. All my brother and sisters have soft mind and have mind to look after dad and mum and among us. I love my brother and sisters. I am sure that I could give my sister Yedam a good time when I am serving family after few years.
 I love dad,
 I love mum,
I love elder sister Lhamo,
 I love brother Dorji,
 I love sister Yedam and Salung, And finally my love to Sonam lhaden and kenchosum and Tsa-Wa-Lam.

Who is Next now?

The blooming of flowers in most trees is yet started and the chirping of birds for the first time for that year (2004) has yet another marking of season. It’s exactly the time for school going children has come. Gom Dorji, a straight forward boy was in six. Gom was talented boy in every field be it games , studies and all round and of course bet naughty too. As he returns home from school at late night, he meets Namgay, a talkative, thin tall and charming lady. He gives his first sight to her at that time. Gaining of once heart was difficult in some cases. However due to previous karmic connection between them, as he requested to her as true lover, she accepted. The day of happiness for him began and ultimately for her. As time pass by, they went to date in weekends and share feelings and even kept so many promises for the future. They even spent night together.

As great Tibetan yogi Milarepa said “meeting in separation”, the time has come for them to depart. They are now in different valley as he has to study in Minjiwonng which is one day walk from village and she is still in village. He has the faith on her as he love her but he never know how she was tricky. As he was out of her sight, she started making new relation. However, when he comes for holiday she gives him a sign of love. Their relation last till the girl was pregnant of other boy. In between the girl was pregnant; he heard many things which usually were bad news. However he never believes what middle person says until and unless he sees with his eyes. I personally felt sympathy on the way he love and have great appreciation on his unwavering love. What you would do if your trusted girl done same as in the story?

 The days of together with Namgay was memorable and ultimately his unforgettable memories in his life. As she was now in that condition, circumstances force him to think a lot. Should I be her boy still? What his other boy would do on me, if I still be her boy? What other would think when I go in between then? Those thought all together asked him to forget her but she is still in his mind as she was his first love.

After a year pass by as he was now in Nganglam School, he love one girl. He controls his mind not to love her. When he thinks of what Namgay did, he decided to love to fade away his unforgettable hurt that was in his bottom of heart. After repeated request and waiting almost for a year Pema accept him. Days were short as days of winter when he has a time to stay with her even thought it was days of summer which is longer than other seasons. With full of hope and trust on pema, he decide that she to be his life partner. But the decision of Gom get alter when her previous boy meet with her in Nangkor school. Don’t even trust friends when we can’t trust ourselves. He was astonished to hear someone going negotiate between pema and his boy. He knows life is meaningless until and unless we make it meaningful. So, he understands the cruel mind of friends and takes it as a phenomenon of the life.