2005 may not return but still clinging over my mind.

From nowhere, I was taking back to the circumstance of 2005 frequently. Counting the years, it is running 10 years. The strongest emotion of 2005 which gave me to experienced is my nightmare. The circumstances of 2005 and the misfortune in my life of 2005 is my light to the way of doing my actions.

2005 circumstance may not return but still clinging over my heart and soul. The year was difficult year for my life. It was the year that I couldn’t predict to live next year. There was no hope to live my life but to depart my body from my soul. I lose my appetite. I can’t walk anymore, walking 5 steps was as if like I climbing the mountain. My weight is decreasing every day and my face becoming dark. Every one visiting me insist, “Aii (expressing sympathy in my dialect), what has happen to you, you are young and admitting to hospital, you will be cured”. They console my already shuttered heart but I understand in other way, they are also with no hope to live my life like me.

The course of my hope get altered as soon I was diagnose with appropriate sickness. It was Mycobacterium tuberculosis which caused the disorder of my body and diagnosed as Tuberculosis (TB) in Jigme Dorji Wangchuk National referral hospital (JDWNRH), Thimphu, Bhutan. When I heard you are diagnosed as TB, I couldn’t hold the tear from my eyes. The tear was rolling over my face. That was the tear of sadness. Thank god, TB is curable diseases.

The treatment of DOTS (Directly Observed Treatment, short-course) started for me. My life with DOTS; I stayed 2 months in Gedakom Hospital, Thimphu and was discharge. DOTS started with injection which last two months in Gedakom. I was bringing back to the ray of hope of my life. A day by day, I was getting better and better, stronger and stronger and happier and happier.

I continued my DOTS for next 6 months in home and school.

I realized that the god almighty blessed me. I also realized correct treatment is going to cured one’s sickness. I say correct treatment because I was admitted in Samdrup Jongkhar Regional Hospital for more than 2 months. My sickness symptom clearly indicate TB symptoms. They failed to diagnose the TB but they gave treatment saying I got lungs problem. With that treatment instead of curing, the case is becoming even worse than before. My father and I asked doctor to let me go Deowathang Hospital and even JDWNRH for further treatment. They said that you will be cured soon and I was discharged home without any cure. I believed them and went home. The sickness become worsen and worsen. I went JDWNRH for further treatment. Within three days they diagnosed my sickness. So, I request all of you to go further treatment if you are not cure in admitted hospital when doctors in that hospital say you don’t need to go. Some doctor never ask us to go for further treatment. There may be case, where patient die because of wrong treatment. I was lucky, I wasn’t dead with wrong treatment.

     
My heartfelt thankfulness for their generous help during my sickness and treatment.

First and foremost thing come in my mind is my only apa (father), ama (mother), ana and ausa (sisters) and kota (brother). It was my apa and ama who reach me to hospital and take care in the hospital. I am sure it’s impossible to repay to one’s parent but I vow, I will render my love and care to parents. I thank to all my siblings for sharing the sorrow and helping me. My apa suffer more than what I suffer. Carry on his back from Arunachal Pradesh India to my village. Thank you very much my dear apa. Ama, you were one who listen my words during my sickness. I pray long life to all my parents.

Thank you ata Sherab and ata Loday for carry me on your back till road point. I really need to repay for your support. I will never forget in my life. And ata Sangay Jamtsho for your support. I thank all the relatives who support me. I thank my late grandmother for her support. Om Ma Ni Pad Mi Hug. May you rebirth in palace of Dewachen. My prayer is always with you, grandma.

In Thimphu, I stay with my step mother (Azim) and late Aku. Thank you Azim and late Aku for your generous help. I will never forget your support.

My thankfulness will go on if I write. I don’t remember all names to mention. The thought within my heart about thanking all the people who support me during my sickness will never vanish.

Thank you all. I pray long life to all.