Broken heart

You made sense but in the wrong sense. Relationship was not about wealth, power and good looking. It was about self-worth. So how long was secret affair run? You know it really doesn’t matter anyway, one day, one week, one month or one year? It was all the same. How do you see secret affair? Are they like flashfloods that would eventually subside when the rain stop?  I stopped while it is early before it reaches the critical level. However I understand, mistake wasn’t mistake for once, it is called accident. Mistake means one who repeat the wrong again and again. After all don’t hope for other to forgive you, you may not be able to forgive yourselves. You might have thought that was just accident, but I know cheating wasn’t accident. That was just starting still than you already done to me. What more if our relationship was old enough? It had already been hurt so much and also hurt a lot of people. And even if I know you didn’t want to hurt me, you still did blindly. It was really bullshit, so I stopped and we become two different people. You might be too hurt and that was what I regret, because I know love was there but trust wasn’t anymore. Now, I just want to forget all those non-sense and move on but not with the past. Year from now, I will not look back at that regret because I learned something. You may forever regret for having risk the person you love and the relationship you value.  My mistake was that I choose to love. If you can only do when nobody can see, don’t do that because some people will hurt. Now I can say, I don’t need anyone who didn’t need me. Actually you know, every action has its own reaction, I won’t be there to punish you but you will be punishing yourselves. That was the reality of samsara. Someday we will forget the hurt, the reason we cried and who caused us pain. We will finally realize that the secret of being happy and free of revenge but letting worthless to go. If train doesn’t stop on your station, remember that is not your train. I am really happy without you. 

By my friend Sithar Wangdi